After a very long and drawn out morning of a target run, laundry, cleaning out my car, and baking cookies, I realized it has been a very long time since I've blogged. So here goes it: On Christmas break for my sophomore year. That last semester sucked so bad. It was pretty much miserable every single day. I quit my job at justice and Started at 24 hour fitness and I love it (free membership, lots of hours, good co-workers) and 6-7 days a week I am there! It's almost Christmas and I have like no time for shopping so therefore I have not finished my Christmas shopping yet-- I'll probably get that done later today. And literally THAT is what has happened in the past few months. Nothing new. Still single, still lacking in the friend category at the moment, still hating the school I go to, and still way too busy with no social life. Love my life...just kidding-- not at the moment!

Not sure how I feel about this.

Back at the school I hate.. once again. To live here for another year. Everyone is stoked to see their friends, roommates, classmates and all that. I'm not sure I have anybody. And on top of that today pretty much sucked. I dont know why I got on an emotional edge today, but I couldn't help but cry while I bleached my entire room from top to bottom. I'm really trying to start over this year. Try something different, since obviously what I did last year didn't work out for me so well. I don't know what to try but I guess I have to just try different things until I find something. I'm looking for something good this year. I'm looking to be happy with I am at the moment and happy with the people around me, and happy with my effort and be happy with everything. That's my goal for this year. As much as I hate this school, I'm going to try to learn to be content here for this year, whatever that may take.

A life without love is like a year without summer

Home for 2 days. Room is full of my stuff. I'm in my own bed. The little things in life that make me happy. Also it's supposed to be 85 degrees tomorrow and I am beyond stoked about that. Tanning. Washing my car. Just spending the day outside and with my family and my two favorite kids in the world. Though school is done, life is still crazy as ever. More work, more driving, but less school work and less studying. But more time to think is just as bad. My minds and thoughts run like crazy, which most of the time is bad. The less time I have to think and let my mind wander, the better. But outdoorsy walks and laying outside to watch the stars (all sorts of summery stuff) gives me more time to think. Maybe if people weren't so stupid things would be a little easier :)

Starting over....

Awhile ago I deleted all my blog posts, I decided to start completely over. And I have to say, I'm excited. I missed it a little. Its finals week. I move out of college tomorrow. Last final at 8 am. Its so weird its over, but I am more excited than anything! I can't wait to get out of here. I'm trying to take it in right now, while trying to study, and listening to a fantastic playlist that I keep getting distracted by. I'll give you an update on whats been going on: It's been pretty crazy lately. Had to change my number (that went along with deleting my posts and my facebook as well) As hectic as things are, this is my life 99.9% of the time. I'm kind of used to it. I just really would like things to settle down... and soon. I'm about at my wits end. I can't handle much more. But I think once I'm out of school (tomorrow at 11 am, Praise The Lord) and I get my work schedule figured out, things will settle down and I can just have a great summer (which includes AFRICA, which I'm absolutely stoked about). Oh and boys are dumb :)