So goes it...

So I don't even know how I'm going to say what I want to say, so it's probably going to come out pretty jumbled and I'm probably going to ramble but I have some things I need to say. This past year and a half have been really hard for me. Mostly because I have lost every single friend that I had..literally every single one of them. Because I had friends that didn't care. I had friends who didn't want to stay with me through thick and thin. When the going got rough, they got going. And I just don't even know what to say, but you guys suck. I literally sit in my car and wonder how things ended up like this. Sometimes I think-- maybe if I was skinnier, or if I had different interests or SOMETHING. But that doesn't matter what you do, your friends who promise they will be there for you, leave. I wonder sometimes how I wound up being the school loaner. The girl who doesn't have anything to do or anyone to do them with, so she goes to bed at 8. I mean, what kind of a life is that? It's depressing that's what it is. I'm still amazed that everyone just walked out on me, you guys are awesome-- you really are. Thanks for walking out. Thanks for leaving me. Thanks. You deserve the best in life. Not really.

New Semester, new... beginnings?

Yea right. Not new beginnings. It may be a new year, and a new semester but I'm back into the same old swing of things. After a full month off of school, but no time off of work, I was driving back and forth 40+ minutes each way, and now I'm back and close to work again, but back into the same school routine which gets really old, really fast. Spring 2013 Semester did not start out particularly as planned, but day one came and went and day two begins tomorrow. I am trying to make the best of where I'm at, but it's really hard to be someplace that you don't want to be, and I LIVE here. With the exception of work, the occasional run to the grocery store at the gym, I am on campus every minute, which makes it even tougher to be happy here. I am trying to not be SO busy this semester and focus more on myself and getting my head and my life straightened out, but so far, I've just been bored. ..But new days always lie ahead.